Yesterday

It was  so awesomely summery!


It felt so good!


I miss it already.

King Solomon

A man of many wives
shows us that it is much easier to speak wisdom
than it is to be wise.

Psalmthing psalmone said

Oh God please hear me.
I'm so empty.
I serve you and trust you to protect and cover me,
because thats who you are and who I am.
You hold nothing against people like me who call out to you,
your love for us is so full, so persistent and so far reaching.
I need that mercy.

In my troubles I call out to you because this mercy and that love,
all that comes from you.
You are the answer my call receives.
In all philosophy and ideas and people and altruism,
there's nothing and no one that does what you do,
or could be who you are.
All these things break in comparison.
Because you aren't only 'the answer.'
And much more than your great deeds is your personality.
You're it.

Show me your way so that I can see.
Make me see your way, so that I can walk it.
Don't let my mind be split, let me be wholehearted in seeking you.
Your truth is truth, so I will be grateful.
I will praise you!
Because you have saved me from such lowness that I cannot describe.

People, systems, philosophies and my own personal short-comings
hunt me down and want to take advantage of me in my weakness.

May your compassion be my example.
May your goodness be something living and growing in me,
that is in everything I do... something that cannot be hidden.

So that even when I break, people see my heart and have a glimpse
of goodness that is yours and are made aware of the truth,
and the enduring good of your substance.
Because in whatever happens,
I know your comfort is reliable
and goes before me,
as much as it is with me now,
and as much as it has held me before, there you are.

Three Things

Our town hall is beautiful in the afternoon.
The automatic folding machine at work sounds like its saying "come on, Rodney." It said this thousands of times today!
The moon was sweet this evening, dull and pinky just after sunset.

Some stuff I can remember from this week

New babies, a three-legged blind cat, cool photos, bus rides, casey and ben affleck and sneezing. Too much sneezing.

When you sneeze and your lip splits? Oh that sucks.

Texting in the morning

Me: How's your new korg?

Ben: Its good. Still hardly know how to use it but its already potenching hard.


I don't know why. This just made me happy.

Addicted to cozyyyyyyyyy

I really love coziness. I wanted to wear my dressing gown to the trivia night tonight, but Lydia said I probably shouldn't.

Instead I wore Han's puffy jacket later on. Thanks Han!

Dog is God backwardz

Last week I saw this guy walking his dog, he walked past me. He looked so genuinely happy! It was great.

Then he walked past me again and was in front of me and I noticed that he wasn't using the leash, he had just left the leash resting on the dogs back. And it got me thinking that the most fun way for someone to walk their dog is probably without a leash, just enjoyin' trusting your dog pal to stay by your side because he/she wants to be there.

Then it made me think that this probably isn't too different from us and God. Like people argue about whether we have freewill or if God predestines us and I reckon this guy and his dog have the answer.

Sure the leash is there, but God wants to walk WITH us, not walk us.

What I get a bang out of

In Catcher in the Rye the main guy wears a red hunting hat. He says 'I got a real bang out of that hat.' And so this blog is just for me to document things I get a bang out of.

God is showing me how I fall short and it is good. Today I had a good conversation with Ben. I say yes to too many people and too many things in my life and then I sit back and watch it all clash! Sometimes. Then I don't end up getting things done that I want to do and that I need to do. Totally unfair of me to do that to my pals! So I'm learning.

A couple of days ago a cool thing happened. I was sort of about to go out. I usually try to spend some quiet time with God in the morning. But I hadn't. I had just enough time to either eat (and I was hungry) or do something about feeling stressed. I can't remember exactly what i was stressed about. But far out. I just sat with God in the measly spare time i gave him and as it worked out there was just a small section of a chapter left from where i last read, so God was totally prepared for only having a few moments of my undivided attention and he used it and gave me answers and comfort.

He is so cool. It always amazes me how he will speak to me in ways that just work with my soul. Sometimes he's a mystery, but sometimes he sorts you out. He's sorting me out.