If you're on shuffle...

Let the song play out, who knows how you'll be inspired.

If the day gets on and you ain't done nothing, but you know you oughta "Everything's Not Lost" as Chris would always say.
Pick up the pieces left of the day and make something great. 10, 10:30, 11, 11:30...who cares, there's many more hours. Just snap out of it and get on your list, make some goals and get a headstart on tomorrow.

Easter Camp was really good.
I hadn't been a leader before and I learned some tremendous things.
I was reminded of God's patience and unending grace, as well as the amazing reminder of what the easter story is.
God gave me joy and security.

I met some young lads who were in my group and they were cool. They asked some huge questions which were stumbling blocks that threw us off discussion more centred on Jesus life, but it was fruitful discussion all the same. I gots ta remember to pray for them guys.

I want to be strong in God's Word as I once was. Tight bro's with, and still reverent of Jesus. I'm aiming high, trying hard and all that and all the rest is God's.

Been watching Chuck with Saskia - good show!
Also went to Dutch Delight (Dutch themed eatery), good food as always. And a fella playin his concertina was charming all up and down my earholes.
Splendid.

Reasons to be happy

. I have a bicycle

. It is sunny as heck

. Chilled and watched Chuck with Saskia last night and it was great, there were pop tarts involved

. Got free burgerfuel as well (Thanks Graeme)

. Went to bed in proper time for starting work at 6am

. God can make me strong

. I spent the second hour or so of work greeting chirpy morning workers

. I will be studying with my friends at Auckland Uni!

. My name is Jorge Regula (sorry, song in head)

. I am reading a great book

. Here is a quote

"To choose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to choosing immobility as a means of transportation."
- Life of Pi

Watch out cos we don't actually choose doubt as a philosophy. It just sometimes catches us unawares. Rock out your philosophical peripheral lenses and keep an eye out for ditches of doubt.

Another quick thought (this one came from hg this week) is...

Your character is made up of all the little decisions you make day to day. Its not just the obvious right/wrong decisions that build character, but the seemingly small bits and pieces of life that you don't lend a thought to, or don't sift through your conscience. Do godly things. Think godly thoughts.

I am thankful for friends who love you enough to challenge you and press you in weak places.

One last thing that makes me happy.

. My work name badge unlocks doors

Phonecall

Dang.
I just got a phonecall from my sis (Sasha).
Made me unsure about doing Graphic Design... or it just made me more interested in Psychology.
Weighing up these options is difficult.

Graphic design and Psych are both fun and exciting for me. I am bubbling with ideas for both. Mostly Psychology these days.
You'll only last in creative graphic design till your ideas become stale and the new blood comes through.
But in Psych you can study your whole life.
Psych takes a couple or three years longer to study.
Its easier to do Graphic Design.
Its easier to study Psych and then study Graphics later in life rather than the other way around.
Academic study was not my strength in high school.
To me studying graphics seems slightly daunting.
Studying Psychology seems like I'll be exploring.
My Mum, Dad, and Sasha have all studied Graphic design. It makes me feel like I'm under their shadow's.
I wonder which the world lacks more -thought provoking images or thinkers and counsellors?
I wonder which category I can contribute to?

I shall think and pray. Please give any advice.

Speaking of phone calls. Talked to Miriam on Han's phone on Monday. She's alive and stares at apples everyday. It was cool. Good to hear she is doing well!

I just rode a bike I bought on trademe. Still need to fix it up more, but it was a fun thing to do at night.
I will greet the morning at 5am tomorrow! Hooray for work. Oop, need to book a taxi.

I feel like I lack male role models. I have been looking in the wrong places.

Absurd

I believe squinting makes people more frustrated and have more negative thoughts.

I walked a lot in the sun today, to and from work.

I understood absurdist philosophy on a deeper level and so now I want to read Albert Camus.

I decided I'm gonna go to AUT and study graphic art. Soz m8s at uni, wish I could study with ya, but its alotta dough to to flog on chillin'

Then again, chillin' is priceless...

For eveything else there's mastercard?

DAMN MEDIA!!@!@!

Morning

Fresh air up the nose and out the mouth. I don't think I've been happier to breathe!

At work, but what a nice morning!

Bowling for joy

Woo!
At homegroup last night we were chillin for a bit, playing cards etc. Then Kent was like "Lets go bowling."
So we did!

It was spontaneous good times. Until we figured out why he wanted to bowl with us so much -to prove he was the awesomest!
Flippin strike after strike, I tell ya!

But it was awesome. Probably the most fun bowling I've ever had. 2 games for $10 meant we could do a good one, and then a silly one (like class photos). We found a genius combination sport which was sort of a mix of Pong and bowling.
It was awesome when Lance hit all the pins except 2 and they were one pin apart so there was a little gap and I was like, "Bowl it through the gap- don't hit the pins! It'll be awesome!"
Then he did! It was genius.

Awesome sermon on Sunday. Really relevant to my brain. But I will download it and listen again because I STILL haven't learnt my lesson.

On a serious note, joey told us a few weeks ago about a friend of his who was going through some tough times, asking questions of life, being confused and insecure, not understanding her self or the meaning of life. Real existential sounding and depressive.
joey texted us last night saying she is now under suicide watch, so please please have her in your prayers. Ask for peace and understanding for her, ask for God's presence, people's empathy and sympathy, ask for joey to have strength and wisdom to be a light where he can. Thank God he is the power of our power.

I'm just reminded of something. It ius a great thing to pray for others. When you are feeling a little frustrated with self, perhaps unable to speak to God about your own problems cos you feel like he's heard too much or you're too inside your own head - praying for others gives you an opportunity to speak with God and to know you're not being self-absorbed. To just speak with Him and plead with Him and thank Him- not on your own account.

Coldpoos

Saw Coldplay and it was sooooo lame!

Chris was jumpin' around, such a fool! Cussing and telling everyone he was better than them and then the FBI came and was like, "Laban we need you."

Nah actually that was a lie and it was cool. I just didn't want to be predictable. And I'm tired of reading/hearing/talking about it/too tired in general.

Been working early mornings (getting up at 5am). Coldplay made me stay up late too, and then when I was gonna go to work my taxi was waaaaayy late. So late that I waited for 10mins after they were supposed to come, then my dad dropped me to work and when he got home the taxi was there and he told him he'd already taken me.
And by that point there was far too much stress in the day for me to want to be awake anymore. Well my alarm was stress enough actually. I was dozing off while eating breakfast.

Thought a heck of a lot today.
It stops me from being able to enjoy things, or have normal conversations. I have the cynical bug atm. It doesn't help that I generally have a pretty rampant inner monologue anyway. Its good to be able share your thoughts with God. Turn monologue to dialogue. Sometimes guilt holds me back. Inadequacy. But grace is adequate and I love it. But sometimes you just can't bring yourself to say anything.
I feel like I'm the evidence for myself that God uses the weak. But I'm a bit of a squirmer. I guess we all are in different situations. When God presses your heart, puts you in situations where you have to learn the hard way or face something, then you start to squirm and try and Jonah out of it. But there's always a flippin fish after you. God's always got his merciful hand out there for you, even when you try avoid it.

On monday Rob Bell talked about forgiving someone meaning that you wish them well and want them to succeed.
...You think you've forgiven someone and then Rob whips that out.


But something I did enjoy today was talking about babies. Happened twice today.
And the sun was jolly today, once the morning rain gave way and that was real cool.

I have to return an umbrella i borrowed from work. Thanks for reminding me.
(It was my "onion lobe" kicking in) Ricky G inventin' organs, mocking Karl Pilkington.